A Better Dad I Could Never Find

Assalamualaikum

Yesterday, 27th December 2008
Was my papa's birthday
I was not around to wish his birthday
I was not around to make his favourite teh tarik kurang manis
I was not around to fry his favourite goreng pisang/ goreng cempedak for his 'minum petang'
I was not around to check his blood glucose level (for his diebetes)
I was not around to take his blood for his regular medical check up
I was not around to check on what kind of food he's taking
I was not around to remind him to not to eat a lot of sweet foods/halwa (eventhough it was his favourite)

Please forgive me papa,
For always not being around
Whenever you need help
Whenever you need me

But I always remember
That papa was always around
When I need help
when I need someone
to give me advice and guidance
to shed my tears
to comfort my heart
to heal my wound

Papa was always around
To check on my Qur'anic memorization
Since I was 3 years old
Till now,
Papa still asked me:
"Macam mana hafalan kakyong, dah makin bertambah ke?"

Papa was always around
When I didn't do well in my exams
"Takpe, kakyong dah buat yang terbaik"
That is what he always said
Never scold me to do what i'm not capable of

Papa was always around
When I was humiliated in front of my friends
"Takpe, kalau kakyong sabar, Allah akan bagi ganjaran yang lebih baik"
That was what he said

Papa was always around
When I was in an extreme fear of my nightmares
He taught me du'a from al-ma'thurat
I was 8 years old at that time
"kalau kakyong baca du'a ma'thurat ni, Allah dan malaikat akan jaga sepanjang kakyong tidur sampai dah bangun nanti"
That was what he said
and I've became a brave girl
since then
and I still practice the du'a
eventhough
i have no more nightmare

Papa was always around
To guide me through life
"Hidup ini bukan untuk diri kita saja, tapi juga untuk orang lain. Perbaikilah diri sendiri dan serulah orang lain"
That was what he said
And that was my turning point
When I realized the importance of da'wah

Papa was always around
To resolve my problems
"Buatlah perkara yang akan mendatangkan ketenangan buat hati kakyong"
That was what he said,
When I didn't know what to do
And that word really calm my heart

Papa was always around
When I need him
During my happiness and my sadness
Thank you Allah,
For blessing me with such a great dad
A better dad I could never find

O Allah
Grant him happiness
Bless him with your forgiveness
Bless him with your paradise
Keep him away from hellfire
Accept all his good deeds
Let him be among your beloved servants
ameen ya rabb

Dearie papa,
Thank you for always being around,
This whole 29 years
With patience, love and perseverence
I want you to know,
You mean a lot to me
May we'll be together always
In this world and the hereafter

*******

I don't always tell you
How you fill my heart with cheer
And how happy I am
Whenever you are near

I don't always tell you
That the love you give
Brightens every day
That I live

I don't always tell you
What's in my heart
That you are the most
Important part

I don't always thank you
For the many things you do
Or tell you how much
I really love you

Happy Birthday, papa!

Wherever you are
What ever you do
Remember there is your daughter
Who cares for you
Who loves you so true

*******


Papa at my akad nikah


Papa with my 1st son (Syed Luqman)